Soon I was out of rehab .
Slowly recovering and getting back to a so-called normal ‘good’ ‘clean’ life .
I tried as much as I could to frequent the Masjid .
Imraan encouraged me and he didn’t even make me feel uncomfortable .
I got back to work also .
My boss was very happy with my progress , although some people at work gave me the random stares .
You could say the pieces of our family puzzle was slowly falling into place .
Nabeela was back to her normal self . I hardly saw Aarifah since she’s in Matric now and she is a very dedicated student .
Sahal acted as if nothing happened .
We went daily after Fajr for Hifz Dhor together .
And everything was slowly falling into place .
I still smoked cigarettes . I guess old habits die hard .
I still kept contact with Taahir .
Zayn and Mike .
Mike is gone overseas for studying and assisting his dad in his business .
Zayn is still studying psychology .
Maleeha gave up on trying to call me and I wasn’t interested .
Sometimes when I went to the bakery or anywhere for that matter , I’d get the stares from people .
People used to even come and say ‘oh its you? Becoming holy?’ And they’d mock me .
It hurt .
I still wasn’t dressing like a good haaro poiro but I was trying . I mean I didn’t shave .. I wanna grow a beard . I want to . Its my decision .
I wear kurta sometimes on a Friday .
Imraan encourages me to wear for every Salaah … but I guess I’m not on that level of piety .
I’m not even pious yet .
I watch TV , I listen to music sometimes . I waste time!!
But I hope I will improve . Soon . Insha Allah .
Looking back at the past year , I just realised how much I’ve learnt , how much I’ve actually improved and reformed . I do feel different , no doubt about that . But … compared to a life of sinning like that I prefer this life . Sometimes I look back and think to myself that Allah has brought me this far . He has shown me different sides . I appreciate my Islam now more than before . I don’t actually like to admit this , but its the truth .
He brought me from the darkness to light …
So on this note … this series has ended .
Hope you enjoyed it .
Allah accept my broken efforts .